The Monet Noctaris Podcast
byMonet Noctaris
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The Monet Noctaris Podcast is for those who can no longer pretend the old world makes sense. Through grounded spiritual insight, personal story, and cultural disentanglement, Monet explores what happens when the systems, identities, relationships, and beliefs that once held us begin to break apart. This is a podcast about disillusionment as initiation, sovereignty as embodiment, and the slow, often messy process of becoming coherent in a world built to keep us fragmented. For the ones waking up from performance, programming, spiritual bypassing, self-abandonment, and inherited survival patterns — welcome. There is a way through. www.monetnoctaris.com
Episodes(12 episodes)
12. I Learned to Be Content Alone. Now What?
After leaving an toxic marriage, losing soul connection she loved deeply, and spending a year deliberately alone, Monet arrived somewhere she once thought impossible: contentment.
She no longer needed a relationship to fill the silence. She had built a peaceful life—one without emotional volatility, self-betrayal, or a man at its center. But when love returned in a form that carried real potential, that peace began to reveal another possibility: had independence become safety, or had it also become somewhere to hide?
In this episode, Monet explores the threshold of coherence—the point at which reconne...
Published: Jul 24, 2026Duration: 50m 50s
11. The Dreams That Wait for Us
For years, I barely sang—not on a stage, not professionally, and eventually, not even to myself.
Music had once been at the center of my life. I began voice lessons as a child, earned a degree in vocal performance, and spent years singing professionally in San Diego. But as I built my life around marriage, motherhood, and survival, I slowly moved myself outside the center of my own dream. By the time I stopped singing completely, even trying to sing along with a Disney movie would make me cry.
After leaving my marriage, I hope...
Published: Jul 17, 2026Duration: 49m 59s
10. When “Everything Happens for a Reason” Stops Being Enough
What happens when a spiritual belief that once helped you survive no longer feels true?
In this episode, I trace my gradual disentanglement from the frameworks that shaped my spiritual life—from growing up in an unconventional spiritual place of worship, to immersing myself in past-life regression and New Age spirituality, to eventually questioning one of the beliefs I had clung to most tightly: that everything happens for a reason and is always for our highest good.
For years, that belief helped me make sense of suffering, psychic upheaval, heartbreak, and profound uncertainty. But it als...
Published: Jul 10, 2026Duration: 1h 1m 30s
9. When Six Figures Became Self-Abandonment
What happens when you finally reach the milestone you were taught would make you feel safe, successful, and free — and instead, your whole body says no?
In this episode, I’m talking about disillusionment with success: the kind that comes when the business works, the numbers grow, the goal is reached… but the life underneath it is no longer sustainable.
I share the story of building a six-figure spiritual business while overriding my body, over-giving to clients, blurring the lines between service and self-abandonment, and trying to keep scaling inside a model that was slowly burnin...
Published: Jul 3, 2026Duration: 59m 36s
8. When Polyamory Became Self-Betrayal
In this episode, Monet Noctaris explores disillusionment through the lens of polyamory, ethical non-monogamy, bisexuality, coercion, and the quiet ways we can use “expanded” frameworks to betray our own knowing.
This is not an episode about why polyamory is bad. It is an episode about what happens when a relationship structure becomes a place where boundaries are crossed, needs are distorted into demands, and self-abandonment gets spiritualized as growth.
Monet shares the story of coming out to herself more fully, opening her marriage, realizing she had been overriding her own body’s wisdom, and later repeat...
Published: Jun 26, 2026Duration: 58m 45s
7. Disillusionment: When the Spell Finally Breaks
In this episode, Monet begins breaking down the first stage of the Sovereign Human Pathway: disillusionment.
Disillusionment is the moment when an old story, belief system, relationship pattern, or way of living stops making sense. It can feel like grief, anger, confusion, a dark night of the soul, or a quiet internal realization: I cannot keep doing this anymore.
Through a deeply personal story, Monet shares how a framework that once helped her reclaim her worth eventually became something she used to override her own intuition inside a relationship and family system that was causing...
Published: Jun 19, 2026Duration: 52m 5s
6. The Sovereign Human Pathway Is Here
In this episode, Monet introduces the Sovereign Human Pathway: a free audio journey and workbook created as a map back to yourself in a time when so many people are feeling the old ways of living, relating, working, and surviving no longer fit.
Building on the previous episode’s exploration of the collective return to coherence, Monet names what many are feeling internally: the inability to keep pretending, white-knuckling, compartmentalizing, or participating in lives and systems that feel fundamentally untrue.
She walks through the six stages of the Sovereign Human Pathway — disillusionment, disentanglement, reconnection, coherence, embo...
Published: Jun 12, 2026Duration: 26m 47s
5. You’re Not Broken — You’re Unhooking from the False World
In this episode, Monet bridges her personal story of leaving self-abandonment and coming home to sovereign coherence with the larger collective shift so many people are feeling right now.
If life feels harder to tolerate, if the old coping mechanisms no longer work, if the systems and relationships you once accepted as “normal” now feel absurd, painful, or impossible to participate in, you are not alone.
What looks like collapse is not the end of the world. It is the exposure and unraveling of the false world: the systems, templates, and distortions humanity was trained to a...
Published: Jun 5, 2026Duration: 35m 49s
4. When Your Timeline Starts Crumbling
Sometimes the life you built to survive becomes the life you’re invited to outgrow.
In this episode, Monet shares the story of returning home to Encinitas for the first time in years — alone, unstructured, and open enough to feel the ocean call her back to herself. What began as a simple trip to sing at an old friend’s wedding became a profound moment of clarity around home, family, embodiment, motherhood, and the quiet ways life redirects us toward our highest good.
Through the lens of timeline navigation, Monet explores what it means to recogn...
Published: May 29, 2026Duration: 50m 37s
3. Sacred Rage & the End of Being Easy to Love
In this episode, Monet shares a personal reflection on dating again after a year of healing, and what it means to enter connection without abandoning yourself.
From there, she opens a deeper conversation about sacred rage: the anger that rises when we have spent years overriding our own knowing, abandoning ourselves for love, and trying to be “easy” enough not to be left.
This is an episode about resentment, self-betrayal, emotional survival, leaving what harms you, and learning how to let the fire burn down the false contracts — without letting it burn you.
Your a...
Published: May 22, 2026Duration: 44m 44s
2. No More Crucifixes Above the Doors
In this episode, Monet reflects on growing up in the open-hearted spiritual landscape of Encinitas, the quiet grief of returning to a hometown that has changed, and the deeper meaning of sanctuary. She shares, for the first time, part of her story of living inside a marriage shaped by religious control, lack of bodily autonomy, and the slow erosion of her own inner knowing.
Through memories of contrasting spaces of worship, hidden tarot cards, crucifixes above every door, and the moment she began to reclaim her own home, Monet explores the difference between the sacred and a...
Published: May 15, 2026Duration: 46m 57s
1. Welcome Home
Episode 1: Welcome Home
Welcome to The Monet Noctaris Podcast — a space for honest conversations about spirituality, embodiment, healing, creativity, and what it means to come home to yourself after years of living in survival, performance, or disconnection.
In this first episode, Monet opens the door to the world of the podcast: a grounded, human, and deeply intuitive space for exploring the unseen without leaving the body behind. This is not about becoming more spiritual by becoming less human. It is about returning to the truth of who you are, learning to trust your own inner kn...
Published: May 8, 2026Duration: 28m 39s